A Recycled Post From October

Sometimes I wonder why I had to be made into a girl. I wonder why I had to be made with all these ramped emotions and a mind that never stops thinking about at least 3 things at once. But while I seem to have every thought and every emotion running through my head, I still feel numb to things that are deep. I feel shallow and empty. I know thats not me. All the things that God has painfully changed me from seem to be flooding back again and it scares me. My heart, for some reason I cannot find, seems to ignore Him or just chose to not seek Him. I know my life is pointless with out my Lord's love in it... And life could never fully reach its potential until it is no longer my own. I ache to feel His tug on these emotions- to make them His and grab hold of my heart again. I long to feel His unmistakeable touch and hear His comforting voice that puts everything to ease.